Two more steps and I’m out of this darkness
Clawing, pushing and pulling
Something’s holding me back.
Grasping for something to climb on
I want to move forward
But I’m tied to my past.
Slipping back into memories
The kids point and laugh at me…
They keep pushing me down.
What is this force that I don’t see?
Chained to my hands and feet
I just want to go now.
The girl you used to know who used to pick flowers
She’d play outside for hours,
She’d come when you’d call.
That girl is now locked up inside of me,
Caged in her misery
She gave up after the fall.
Falling out of my consciousness
The moments are slipping by
I’m locked in my brain.
Inside, a battle still wages on
It’s still me against her
These feelings remain
The sweet child, the happy one
She’s not taking messages
You can yell all you want, she’s not coming home.
The young girl you once knew
She’s distorted and broken,
Don’t knock she won’t answer; she just wants to be alone.
I can’t make it go away
Try to forget what they’ve done
Memories fleeting in the back of my mind
A voice inside of me keeps on screaming
“Don’t give up! Keep fighting,
This is not your time.”