I Am Not Finished

I am Not Finished

“I am not finished.”

I’d like to talk about Edward Scissorhands.  Despite his jarring appearance, he was just a boy who never was taught the ways of society.  With an open mind, he discovers the traditions of the “real world.”

Many times he is taken advantage of for his innocence.

Innocence-What a concept.  Wide eyed and naive, this character becomes seasoned in the ways of the world. He develops feelings and emotions he never experienced before; anger, sadness, jealousy and regret.

Those feelings of jealousy and regret (in my opinion) stings the most.   We become so caught up the “real world” that we have lost ourselves.  We lost our innocence.

What would “little” you say to the lifestyle you currently live?

“I am not finished.”  Words to live by.  Keep that childlike innocence alive.

The Currency of Candy


This is Persephone.  She is a candy vampire.

Persephone loves any and all sweet items.  She doesn’t feed on blood but soda pop and licorice instead.

What if candy solved all our problems?  I remember that childhood song, “If all the raindrops were lemon drops and gum drops…”  Seems unsanitary now but when we were kids candy falling from the sky was an amazing idea.

I used to be rewarded with candy.  Most children were!  Go to the doctor’s office and leave with a lollipop! Something so simple yet we would do anything for it.  Now as an adult, I find I’d rather be rewarded with money.  Money to pay for my hobbies, a roof over my head, water and electric, funds for medical bills.  What if we could pay with candy?  Oh how nice that would be.

I recall reading about the aristocratic society weighing more.  This is due to the ability to afford food for their family and themselves.  Today, we see celebrities thin and somewhat emaciated. The richer you are, the thinner you are because you can afford to keep yourself healthy.  In shape.  Now there’s a concept.  I’d much rather be curvy than stick-like.  Don’t get me wrong–It’s very important to be healthy.  Exercise and a well balanced diet are important…I’d just rather pay my trainer in chocolate.

“You are not a …

“You are not a beautiful or unique snowflake.” -Fight Club

Harsh words.

I would like to talk about bullies.  You know-those big, scary, cold hearted people lurking in the shadows that make your life miserable?  What is their motive?  Maybe they are jealous.  Maybe they are angry about something in their life that they need to physically vent on a pencil neck geek.

I’m not going to support bulling in any way shape or form.  I despise bullies.  I want them to suffer like they made me suffer. However, that would not make the world a better place.  Bullying is an epidemic.  It is a disease that causes permanent damage.  It has killed people.  The saddest part is that we are all bullies in some way. Maybe it’s not physical but in someway or another we all have bullied someone at one point in our lives.  This is not an attack.  Please hear me out.  Us humans have freedom of choice.  We have the ability to make our own decisions whether they are for good or not.  I find myself torn on an everyday basis to either defend myself or to hold it inside.  I am a bully.  I bully myself.  I beat the living daylights out of myself.  And what do I have to show for it?  I am considered “a good person.”  

There is no cure for bullies.  The only solution is to find a way to deal with it.  I have come to grips with the fact that I am flawed.  I may still have emotional bruising but I accept myself.  Flaws make the world work.

So I guess Tyler Durden has a point in Fight Club.  We are not what we have been told as children. So what if we aren’t “beautiful or unique.”  We all have ugly issues of the same kind.  Accept it.  Own it. Love it.

No go kick some ass.

Passive Thank You Notes

“Passive Thank You Notes”


Thank you for making me humble

I no longer have any pride

Thank you for making me transparent

I have nothing more to hide

Thank you for taking my innocence

I’m seasoned at being a fool

Thank you for taking advantage of me

I was happy to be just a tool

Thank you for making me worthless

Our time together was unreal

Thank you for making me numb to the world

Now I don’t have to feel

Thank you for making me tainted

No one likes pure anymore

Thank you for taking me for granted

I’m glad I could be your whore

Thank you for all of your promises

Everyone must earn trust

Thank you for your corruption

There was never love, just lust

Thank you for the pain you caused me

Scared, scorned, scarred and sick

Thank you for making me tougher

My skin has grown in rather thick

Thank you for making me stronger

I don’t need you in my life

Thank you for making me realize

I can live without being a wife